I've only told my wonderful BWBA group members about my Dad who was diagnosed with cancer back in August. They have been so wonderful with their prayers and words of encouragement but I'm just so heartbroken and destroyed over this. I know that we can't be on this earth forever and I can accept the fact that we all have to pass on someday. But it's the doctors, the aggravation of our health care system that angers me so much and the bull crap of paperwork and tests and scans and rescheduled appointments and whatnot that my Dad has to be subjected to.
Most of all, I fear that he will hurt. I simply don't want my Dad to go, yet I don't want him to suffer. I know that there are so many others out there in similar situations and I feel for all of you going through this. How different it is when it's ourselves and our families facing something like this.
Then I realize that there are so many people that are suffering in so many other ways too, whether it's the economy, loss of employment, losing a home or what have you. I'm so surprised to find out how much that people I'm close to and thought I knew are hurting either financially or with some other crisis when it just seems like on the surface their lives are perfect and I'm shocked to find out otherwise. It comes down to the fact that we ALL have to face things in our lives that we don't want to and we must find the strength to endure.
So I prayed. It actually made me feel so much better and gave me the fuel to paint something that I hope inspires others in some way. I've heard it said so many times before that art is therapy and they are exactly right! But I found out too that prayer is therapy. So combining the two just seemed like a match made in heaven!
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Hi Sweetie!...Your Angel is so beautiful!...I'm GLAD you painted her and shared the inspiration behind it with us,as painful as it is...you really hit the nail on the head for me,I'm one of those that is having a "Multiple Crisis" pile-up(Losing my home,family illness,the list is a mile....)...but your post made me realize,I lost my Faith....and I can't remember when I lost it...But maybe I just need to focus on reconnecting....Sorry I got a little deep there,I just wanted to let you know YOU are a Light of Inspiration,even in darkness....Thanks Lori for sharing!....Hugs&Smiles to you....:)virginia
Lori I have watched your work on Ebay a long time and love it. So sorry to hear about your father.Ilost my father to cancer when he was only 42.Many years ago. I too paint angels among other things and would like to tell you about a facebook page called Art, Love & Healing. The 3 women who started it are dolls. One is Carriejoy who sells on Ebay too. Check it out. It is a great place to feel safe and express our fears and accomplishments too.
Joji, I can't wait to check that site out! I've been a fan of your work too, you are so amazing! So sorry to hear of your loss so many years ago. It's so hard but life still must go on and we must pray for strength. My prayers are with you and I hope all is well with you.
Virginia, honey, been there, done that. We lost our home, a car got repossessed and my husband lost his business all in a year's time. It's been rough and right when I thought things were looking up, my husband got laid off from the job he had recently found. My list keeps going too. It was just a little bit after this that we learned of my Dad's cancer. I've decided that I am not a VICTIM of things, I am a SURVIVOR!!! They say that what doesn't kill us makes us stronger, but they never say just how close it gets to killing us, do they? I am so honored if I have inspired you because you have ALWAYS been such a source of inspiration to me, Virginia. Hugs and blessings to You, friend!!!
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